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its new year eve's today.. almost forgot today is new yr eve.. haha... 've been so busy e few days til dun even know wat day it is... went yuhua and river valley alumni band concert ytd... overall, nt bad.. quite good.. b4 going e concert, we (me, xc, tanny, xiao b, kaymiang, ah bass, juliet) went pass esplanade.. den there was this wishing 'pole?', for us to write our wishes down.. of coz, all of us wrote hoping tht this MD 29 will be a great sucess and ticket sales will be good.. other den tht, i've also written tht hopefully coming 2006 wont be full of shit for me... really hate 2005.. frm e 1st day of 2005, nth was smooth for me....

beginning of 2005
used to be a care-free girl.. where everything seems so smoothly for me.. no study prob.. no bgr relationships.. no politics prob.. but as 2005 starts.. when i'm going to 18.. shit starts to come.. 1stly is relationship prob... hate to admit, its really terrible for me... cancerians r lidat..its hard for them to adapt n move on quick... but still life hav to go on... n it took me real real long to really moved on.... [but i nvr regret, i've had many memorable moments.. n sm r e most happiest moments i had so far =)]... den rumours start coming 1 by 1... though i know it wil be over when they get tired, but i stil hate it. n i mean hate it, nt dislike....

mid 2005
when i've moved on.. its yr 2 for me le... got into committee, having a post of QM. it was quite smoothly for me at 1st, it seems ok... worked well with my partner too... while band this side was ok... shit happen on e study side... got into IC alone... where all my grp mates, close frenz in yr 1 got into food option instead... it was v weird at 1st, with gary, lingzhi, cheeann n zhiwei. coz i wasn't really close with them during yr1... slowly, started to click with them..... as for band side.. enjoyed my MD and e genting trip with yuan ru, jiahui n company.... but sad to see them graduate... starting to feel more n more lonely....

half-mid to end 2005
QM job starts to become v v difficult for me... sick n tired to keep calling up e companies.. probs began to occur btw me n my partner, n also btw me and the band..hate going to e front n give announcements.. n worse i'm all alone to face all these myself.. [but again, i've nvr regret being a QM, i've really learnt alot of things during this one yr... n whenever 1 thing is done, there'll be a great sense of satisfaction].. used to hav kinda n yuanru to talk to.. yuanru had graduated.. kinda itp.. n also started drifting away frm e band... used to hav yuanru, jiahui n company.. so fun at tht time... but yuan ru, jiahui all grad.. kinda, joelly itp... as for classmates, they also wont understand how i feel.. everytime only will say: aiyah, u marry to band la, whenever i gotta c ms hope during break.. haiz...

end 2005
finally, e day i hope to come as come... 2005 is finally going to be over... used to hav a superstitious mentality tht this yr i'm so in deep shit coz this yr rabbits 'zhong tai shui'... zhong tai shui is much much worse than fan tai shui... tht's y, i've always been in deep shit watever i do.. 've read up e new yr chinese fortune book... haha... rabbit this yr nt v good also, but at least it nvr fan tai shui nor zhong tai shui.. lol.. so its a good sign... haha... last few days of 2005, really cant stand anymore... there's a hidden fear in my heart.. fear of wat? i'm nt sure also...

coming 2006
now, main priority is to focus on MD 29 ba.. left 3 wks only... after tht will be concentrating on my studies n fyp...promised my future fyp mates tht i wont be so committed to band.. as for band.. got into committee again... i really dunno n i doubt my ability.. n whether i'll stay on, shall leave after MD den say... am really tired now... to think now, my frenz in band already getting lesser... n when after MD, my closer frenz like jiehong, joelly, xue chun left... i really really scared i cannot hang on anymore.. i admit my resolution for 2005 is to be independent. yes, i think i've grown abit independent compared to last yr.. but i really dun wish to be alone.. i really hope to hav someone stand by me... who will?? hmm...

hope 2006 wont be a shit year... really really pray hard for tht... n lastly, HAPPY NEW YR TO ALL!


new song- i'll stand by you... who will stand by me?
hope e nick of mine: shit always happen, will get to change in coming 2006

31st dec 2005 740pm

back from MD camp...
tired?? hmmm.. ok lo.. coz didnt stay overnite except for tue.. den tue also had v good slp.. haha.. use 2 sleeping bag as mattress.. lol.hmm.. new committee also out le.. president joanne tan, vice-president adeline... GIRL power lehz.. haha..

finally camp's over.. gotta chiong all e report tmr n during wkends.. didnt start a single one. ha.. really no mood sia.. n still gt case study. SHIT! i almost forgot bout it.. sian.. muz really pia all out this wk.. when sch reopen sure super busy, gt 3 band prac excluding sectionals (if have), testS.. n still gt QM stuff undone.. anyway, only left 3 wks to MD.. so here am i promoting Singapore Polytechnic Symphonic Band Musical Delights 29.. hee

Symphonic Band MD29
Venue: The Esplanade Concert Hall
When: 22nd Jan 2006
Time: 5pm
Price: $16/$21
Repertoire: Colonel Bogey, Moorside Suite, The Tuba Concerto, Air in Gigue(student composition), Ride, Wizard Of Oz, Disney Fantillusion.. n 2 combine pieces with choir..

ppl.. pls support!!! all tickets are available at sistic outlets.. or u can come find me.. i can help u book e tics.. thks =)


*anyway, thks jiahui,xuechun,tanny,jermaine,jiehong for e small x'mas pressie.. =)*

christmas...
had family bbq at Labrador Park.. nth much.. went explore e whole park with sis n cousins.. had fun exploring.. miss e days when e four of us wil always play together(sis, me, cindy, serene).. =)
n ya.. drank at nite.. bought a alcoholic drink called wat wine turkey one.. with sis.. (8% alcohol) n uncle bought a 12% alcohol champagne. haha.. doesnt taste good. i suppose all alcoholic drink dont taste good except those gt flavour kind la.. haha.. but stil drank.. keep drinking.. hopin tht misery wil go.. haha.. juz a silly tot of mine..but smhow, i did nt cough as much when i drank. coz it makes me feel hot inside my throat.. haha..

in a few hrs time,wil be going sch for band camp le...gotta report at 430pm coz gt com meeting.. no mood.. dun feel like packing my bag at all.. haiz.. i wanna go shopping. hahs.. 've been working e past few days.. havent bought x'mas present for class chalet x'mas present exchange..shall avoid e camp as much as i can.. since its a camp to prepare for MD, shall only be presence during sectionals n band prac =x
bad feeling for this camp. heard frm tanny gt wat EOGM,dun even know wat it stands for.. only know its smthg like AGM.. dunno y gt such things again.. gt 1 AGM stil not enuff.. hai.. den many committee mem ask me to prepare a speech 1st.. haha.. say i sure kena over e reeds thingy..

haiz.. let them be ba.. i've already had no energy to fight for myself anymore.. i've broke down completely.. its hard to stand by myself ALONE. maybe i'm nt a gd QM, but i've tried my best.. my conscience clear.. there's no need to prep a speech 1st. i dun even hav time to prep for my reports n case study, where wld gt time prep speech..
haiz.. i juz hope to lead a peaceful days to MD.... pls..


shall tag later when there's chance.. keep dc.. gt ppl keep callin my hse phone... muz be those customers.. read newspapers so many yrs le, stil dunno 26th dec gt no newspapers.. publishers, newspaper vendors also need holi one k!!! they also need to celeb christmas..

christmas sales finally over..... super tired... this job can really train my leg muscles sia.. haha.. 've been standing from 9-8pm everyday.. with only maybe 1hr of rest for lunch n dinner... fri worst.. stand from 9am-11pm!!! coz nt enuff helpers, so have to stay back work OT... when reach hm, slping tht time, stil can feel e 'suaness'.. haha... but we still okie.. those staff down there, even those temporary stuff.. work til 12am.. den next morning 4am muz report for work le.. sm juz stayed over nite there... so poor thing... overall stil nt tht bad la, learnt how to use e cash register, though i'm e cashier in e end... also learn e differ types of ham, sausages.. haha... most imptly, i earned sm money during this wk... better den rotting at hm whole wk.. haha... thks cecilia for e job =)


christmas eve today... reach hm at ard 3+pm from work... bathe.. den wanna go town look for my jeans intially one.. den thinkin of e huge crowd, like last yr... those mad ppl.. with those stupid cans of 'snow'?.. trying scare ppl like me... n celebrate like there's only one christmas in a lifetime... den also dun wan pulled zhihui down n suffer with me.. so i've changed my mind.. decided to juz slack at hm...n irritate my rabbit.. was bored at hm..so went disturb her.. wahaha... den wanna do my reports, case study, n discussion forum one.. but see e lab manual n stuff.. i sian le.... so here am i blogging...
anyway, realised tht there's smthg common btw last christmas n this christmas... both christmas i've fallen sick... haha.. stil can rem last christmas, i cough like mad... but seems like this christmas worst.. coz stil gotta work, so cant rest well... this yr cough also more jialet.. talk to customer 1 sentence, i cough 1 time.. haha.. den keep popping WOODS evey 5mins to soothe tht irritating n itchy throat of mine... have stock up my Robitussin cough drops.. haha.. hope wil recover soon... n hope at least it wil be better tmr compared to today.. if not, tmr christmas party at Labrador Park.. grandma sure nag n nag at me one.... *prays*

TRYING to do abit of my report now.. den maybe go watch vcd, or go slp le.. super tired.. anyway, isn't ppl always say u muz slp b4 12am.. if not Santa wil not put ur present into ur socks... haha... n Hope tmr's family christmas party shall be a good n fun one... =)



24/12/06 1028pm
*a song to match christmas.. haha*

today is the actual working day for me.. e start of christmas sales... e day b4 is juz to learn how to use the cash register, take uniform blah blah only... 1st day only already so happening.. 1st thing is : both e 3 of us tot that we need to report at 1030am.. but when we're at woodlands interchange at 10am, cecilia's cousin started to call n rush us.. e sales start at 1030am, but we need to reach at 10am. so we went to take a cab.. but so so suay... e uncle dunno anything at all... he cant even drive out of e woodlands ring (e circle area)... keep going round n round.. he even nearly went into e bus interchange track tht is only meant for bus... omg! even need us to direct him there.. in e end, had to pay $7.20 to get to the factory, which is nearby only...
when reach there, it was chaos lo... esp at e cashier side.. supposedly shld be no of items X product code, but i always do e opp... makin me keep canceling the transactions blah blah... den e nets machine also making me blur..by noon, when do e X report, realise short of ard $85 lo... but luckily, e more senior staff there double check again n balance off in e end... *heng*..
in e end, gary took over e cashier job, coz he's once chief cashier at NTUC.. haha.. den i went to be promoter, smtimes packer...
have been standing since 1030am to 7pm... only able to sit for 1hr during lunch.. leg super tired.. tmr gonna be a long day again, muz report at 9am smmore.. hope everything wil go smoothly..
ciao


21st dec 2005 1143pm

christmas is coming... everybody's writing wishing list for Santa.. so am i here.....

Dear Santa,

i dun need any gifts from you.. i wont be expecting gifts to appear in my socks during christmas... i only hope for one thing..... tht is not to lead a lonely christmas eve and christmas..........

shirley

life's becoming more n more miserable... will i be able to hang on strong?


20/12/05 1215am

will be working tmr with cecilia & gary.. working at cecilia's uncle 'making ham' factory.. haha.. will be doing cashier with cecilia.. while gary wil be e packer/moving goods.. tht's e adv for girls.. haha.. hmmm.. shall go slp early, or i'll be late again tmr.. haha... hope everything goes well... =)
night~


19/12/06 1241am

updates......

friday 16/12/05
last day of sch for this yr...haha... n it ended with a terrible quiz... haiz.. forget bout it le.. den was band prac.. working on 2nd half pieces.. n realise all 2nd half, i'll be playing with jiahui.. hahaz... keep kena said by her.. =x but overall was stil fun playing with her.. haha.. after band, went supper with jiahui they all den hm..

saturday 17/12/05
had CLS food n fun fair.. supposed to tend e stall frm 8-12pm.. but left at 10am coz gt band perf ... when at e audi backstage, yvonne was saying: "wah, all trumpeters today gt panda eyes sia.. esp shirley.." looked at e mirror den realised, ya.. really gt panda eyes sia.. had v deep eye bag..den zeyu said: "aiyah.. she everytime also gt eye bag one, dun have den its weird le" wah... sad sia, didnt realise it was so jialet.. haha.. so was determined to slp more den 12hrs tht nite.. n i did.. haha.. slept at 1030pm.. n i woke up at 11am e next day..

sunday/18/12/05
woke up at 11am, realised my panda eyes had subsidised! haha...
realised this 2 wks shall going to be a damn tiring wk for me.. other den e NUMEROUS assignments given by ALL lecturers for e-learning, i stil hav 2 quizes, 4 formal reports n 2 casestudy to be handed in e 1st wk of sch.. +working on 19/12 - 24/12 and MD camp on 26/12-29/12... where wld i hav e time to finish so many things... arrgh.. tht means my panda eyes wil be back again.. haha

but whatever it is, shall rest for today 1st n leave everything to tmr.. haha.. bye.. take care =)

18/12/05 339pm

yipee! env studies A test finally over.. stupid module.. make me study over 70 pages over one quiz.. 100 marks but given 1hr to do only... make me cant rest during e wkend when i'm so sick.... hate this module n hate the teacher, DR LIM.. can u imagine u r being scolded n deducted 5 marks for practical for being early, n sat there to wait for ur grp mates to come? ya.. i'm e one.. n he's e one who scold...though he offered me a sweet this afternoon, when he saw me coughing like mad when doing e test, i stil wont change my impression of YOU! haha


one test down... purchasin of string bass also done.. finally.. though was being scolded by ms hope for NOTHING early in e morning, n spoilt my entire mood.. but afterall mood wasnt so bad.. coz env A test is over.. wahaha... n 1 less QM job to accomplish.. haha... but this quotation of string bass, admin stuff along e way to get THT string bass really hav to thank edmund.. haha.. for acc me go get quotation from companies, help me come back SAA settle admin stuff, explain to me wat is a quiver.. haha... coz i know nothing bout strings.. sorry to keep fan u these days n THANKS! =)


overall, today's stil a happy day, coz env studies A test over! (emphasis again) haha.. shall hav dinner n take a break, den have to study for BIA test on fri le... arrgh.. but at least this nt as bad as e env A.. tata

14/12/05 737pm =)

arrgh! i'm sick.. n i dun wan to be sick... gt so many tests, reports, presentation + other stuff to do... n stupid SP, came out wat e-learning wk.. though dun need go sch, but got so many assignments!!! always my batch to be guinea pig.. arrgh


i'm back to fisherman friend.. my friend when i have bad cough n sore throat..haha.. but it seems lik my throat has immune to this sweet.. its not working anymore.. it taste like any other ordinary sweet.. arrgh
i wanna faster recover or i'll gonna cough my lungs out..


hope other related illness lik flu n fever wont start coming.. *prays*


1126pm 7Dec2005

juz sm clarification here... i'm ok.. i'm only making things clear about the purchase of reeds thingy if anyone was wondering how come so long the reeds is not here yet.. i'm not against anybody or anything.. maybe i phrase the words wrongly ba.. pls dun assume my 'assume' word.. will appreciate that.. i dun wan make things worse.. n thks for those who showed concern.. i'm really ok.. or i've nvr been un-ok at tht period of time.. yupz =)



sianz.. fall sick le.. at this period of time, when tests r coming, reports n coming, n so many other things to do... arrgh!

1225am 7/12/05

went haagen daz eat ice-cream yest!! looonnng time nvr go there le.. last time go there is after sec4, where go there to support candice n zirong.. haha..
e chocolate fondue so nice.... love's chocolate.. it makes one happy.. haha.. hmm.. ppl, whenever u r sad or 'fan', dun drink. it only helps by temporily makin u forget ur worries.. eat chocolate instead. it has scientific proven chocolate can make one relax and make u happy... =)

its true.. dun worry.. i'm nt advertising for any choclate company.. haha

p.s jiehong, candice, bird: when going treat me ice-cream again? haha =x


1236am 5/12/05
(now my com cannot put date, coz i change my com's date to 2 months ago.. to avoid norton frm expiring n block my com) sian.....

did a stupid thing today... was overslept today.. den was at hse void deck, a monk stopped me.. he gave me one golden 'ping an' card.. said for my safety n health.. coz was late, didnt really pay attention to wat's he saying. really tot he wanna giv me e pin an fu.. so i juz took it..den when i took it, and was bout to leave.. he took out another card, n show it to me.... he's asking for DONATION!!! den i tot, aiyah, nvm la.. do smthg good.. since he say can put any amount.. so was decide to put $2 one.. den i open my wallet, n realised i only had 1 $10 note. cannot expect me to get e $8 change back frm him rite.. so in e end, i did a stupid thing.... donated my only $10 to e monk.. haiz.. make me so hungry today, no lunch no dinner coz no money. only 1 cereal bar tht i've put inside my bag 2 days ago... hahs.. to think, i think i'm really stupid sia.. shld hav juz walk away in e 1st place.. tot he real monk, den wanna ask for direction, so stop to listen to him one.. stupid me..
hmm.. if he really is a prankster, nt a real monk... den i wish him bad luck sia.. how can use religious stuffs like buddha, to bluff ppl... anyway, i think there's more kind n stupid ppl other den me.. coz other den me donating $10 on e donation card(which is already e min amt), there's ppl donating $50, $30 etc.. hahaz...

n ya.. my theory proves me rite.. cockroaches will start running out when u switch off band rm's light.. once experience 'millions' of them, when i came back bout 10mins later after everybody left e band rm.. totally freak me out, when u saw so many of them.. den today, they switch off e lights to celeb bday.. den when they on e light, there's 1 cockroach at e trombone area.. luckily, they hav switch e lights back on time.. if e cockroach wld hav run to e my side, i'll freak out totally man.

cockroaches juz suz!

a naive n stupid girl~

/time spoiled: its 3/12/05 1252am instead =)

Charlton, CCHB, SP, NTU
shirleylhz@hotmail.com


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