told myself i shld write smth happy so tht whoever is nt feeling gd, after reading a happy post will bcome happy too.. but its v unlikely to b seen here for quite some time.. perhaps until 29th nov bah.. so whoever doesnt wish their mood to get affected, pls press the cross now. hahs
had 2 consecutive heart attack this wk.. failed 2 of my tests.. its really heart depressing especially u have not failed for so long.. the pain is like falling down from a v v high place..... n when i saw my result for physics, 1/6, can u imagine the shock i experienced?? Really cant help but break down.. esp when u expected urself to get around 3 to 4 marks.. n when u realised the reason u got 1/6 becos u shaded the wrong circle in the otas sheet. Really really feel like banging myself on the wall.. Why do i keep making such careless mistakes like copying the wrong equation, didnt saw the qns, n even shading the wrong ans!
haiz.. n as i was alone on my way back home.. all the maybes n ifs came to my mind..
maybe its just the adjusting phase of uni life
maybe things will get better
maybe im just thinking too much
n den the ifs..
if i have decided to work instead
if i have chosen the JC route
if i have chosen a different course..
n these questions can b answered if i can see my future as far as i can see the world just like this:
hmm.. den another maybe came into my mind..maybe i should join some activities to distress.. realised i have so much laughter at yest sign lang class.. the lesson is so relax so fun so meaningful.. suddenly i feel like going back to play in a band.. always feel so relaxed after band practices esp when im stressed up in sch during SP.. i missed the trumpet, the trumpeters, the music n the solitarians.. should i join MD? would i have the time esp with my condition now? hmmm..
or mayb i'll just need more comedies, jokes, chocolates n slp..
its a long ride home n a long thoughts day.. another thought while on train.. why do ppl feel tired after they cry? Is there a chemical released into ur body when u cry tht makes u tired? Is it when u cry u feel tired n u slp n when u wake up everythings ok?
why do ppl cry when they r sad? if someone cant cry, does it mean they wont b sad anymore?? hmm.. mayb i shld follow little prince, think of smth each day when u go to slp.. mayb i'll find the ans one day subconsciously. haha..
im tired.. its a long marathon.