Sunday, April 13, 2008 @7:35 AM
Exam stress!
everybody's stressing over exams now, n i cant believe the subject tht is causing me tremendous stress is not any core modules or even biochem but jap.. Somehow i think no matter how much effort i put in practicising the hiragana, it will nvr b perfect. not tht im a perfectionist nor being too detailed, i just dun wan to lose yuanwan marks because this particular stroke nt long enuff, ur character too thin.. n nt because i wrote the wrong word, wrong structure or wrong verb. n isnt practise makes perfect? Perhaps only a perfectionist will master it. or maybe language is just my 'si xue'. Its so hard to master, a noun is a noun, a verb is a verb. (ok, tht one is still reasonable), u r right means u r right, u r wrong means u r wrong. u draw a fatter character is right, a thinner character is wrong. there's no understanding marks, application marks. Its dead. n mayb thts y my english sucks, my chinese sucks, n my jap sucks. Y cant lang b just like sign language, where the main aim of the language is for communication purpose? for people to convey msg? Just like this post, it definitely will hav numerous spelling errors, grammatical error, but ppl will still understand what i wan to say.
im really nt in the right state of mind now. it mayb due to the stress tht makes the bad hormones overactive, n causing me this pms-state. i know many ppl r facing the same stress state, so im sorry if i showed moodiness, liveliness to anybody. i really dun mean it.. i will not let the 'fan nao' term makes my f(x) negative, thts for sure..
feel better after blabbering all the above 'yuan hen'. its time to clear the thoughts, n continue to fight for the exams. JIAYOU!